After reading this article (http://www.countryliving.com/homes/house-tours/natural-mommie-tiny-farmhouse?ha=1&src=spr_FBPAGE&spr_id=1453_128880338#slide-1) this morning, I can’t help but wonder what is wrong with me. I live in a four bedroom, three bathroom home with a bonus room above the three car garage and I still cannot find space for all my stuff. Three of us live here with two dogs. We don’t even have a guest bedroom.
Every year at this time you see all the information that people have on reorganizing, updating, down-sizing, renovating, dieting, and the list goes on. The message is clear: you are not good enough. Where you are living, and the way in which you do so, is just not good enough.
I love our home and surrounding property; I really do. I have just been having problems with pockets of clutter mysteriously growing (like those mushrooms in the yard) in different parts of the house. I have also been struggling with keeping the house clean. It’s no mystery as to why. I know the reason. I just don’t want to. I want the clean, sparkly house in the magazines; the beautifully organized closets; the tastefully appointed living rooms; and the tricked out kitchens. Let’s not forget the uber organized garage! BUT I just don’t want to have to do the WORK to get there.
I’ve been watching way too much television lately. I’ve become like the vast majority of Americans, who are content to sit and be entertained by Hollywood. Heaven, help me! I should just ask for a LazyBoy for my upcoming birthday, and kiss my dreams of the perfect living room goodbye.
As you can see, I am in a bind. I can’t decide which life I’d like to live: functioning, organized, responsible woman in a pretty home OR pajama clad sloth too attached to the television to care. Too many of my thoughts start with “I used to…” Or “I wish…” My closest friends are fictitious. I suppose I go through this every winter (without TV, of course, this is the first in ten years that we’ve actually had access) and come out of it come spring. At least that’s the hope I’m holding onto this year (read: this is the current lie I tell myself).
This sedentary lifestyle has wreaked havoc on my health. Since getting Netflix and Amazon Prime, my thyroid has conked out and I’ve had a host of other health issues including arthritis and and shingles. But I understand more pop culture references than I did this time last year. Ha! I realize that I CAN change. I just need to decide to do so. Of course, for now, I’ll go see what’s on Netflix. It is Saturday, after all.